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Making the Best of Bed Rest / Having a tough time today

« on: March 26, 2012 at 09:59 AM »

I really hate complaining, but today is really getting me down!  I'm 22 weeks, in bed for almost the last two, I have a sinus infection and a horrible cough that is keeping me awake all the time, I'm exhausted from peeing and coughing all night, and I woke up with what I can only assume is poison ivy on my arm, which I don't even know how I would get that.   I seriously don't know if I can take much more misery!  I was just getting used to the bed rest and the fact that I could lose my baby, and now I have to be sick and itchy on top of it??  Why all of the suffering?  Ugh.  Thanks for reading my rant, I hope you are all having a better day than I am.

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What's Your Story? Tell us. / Introducing myself

« on: March 19, 2012 at 08:33 AM »

  Hello to all of the lovely ladies here!  I can't say that I'm happy to be here, but I'm glad I've found a place where there is so much support and positivity!

Here is my story -
I am 31, with a 22 month old ball of energy named Jackson.  I had a very normal pregnancy with him and delivered vaginally after being induced at just over 39 weeks.  I am expecting my second boy, due 7/29 and hoping and praying he stays put until at least 7/1.

I found out at my anatomy scan that my cervix was 2.4cm, I was 18 weeks.  My doctor told me not to worry because I had such a "wonderful history" as she put it, and maybe a cervix that length was just normal for me.  I was rechecked this past week at 20 weeks, and my cervix was down to 1.3cm.  After a 5 hour appointment that same day with a perinatologist, they sent me home on bed rest with Crinone 8% once a day.  According to my doctor, who is supposed to be one of the best in her field, the progesterone is more beneficial than a cerclage in my situation, however I feel like something more should be done, but what do I know?

I don't go back for another appointment until 3/30, and every time I get out of bed I feel like I am going to lose this baby.  I am trying really hard not to get attached to him, but he is kicking away all day and all night, and just yesterday I could see my belly moving - I can't help but fall in love with him. 

My regular OB says that I will be lucky if I get to 28 weeks, and she doesn't even seem hopeful that I will get to viability.  I am 21 weeks, one day with a long way to go.  The perinatologist wants to try to get me to 32 weeks.  I just want to bring home a healthy boy.

I had to take a leave from my insanely high stress job, so maybe that will slow things down for me a bit.  There has been a lot of activity around me the last few days, so I haven't felt all that isolated yet, we just moved this past weekend so I've spent the last few days telling people where to put things and talking with friends.  But I know the loneliness and helplessness is coming.  My husband works over an hour away, and usually I pick up my son from daycare.  Now with his late hours and the way traffic is, I will only be seeing my son for about 2 hours a day, and I can't even give him his nightly bath.

I think for me that will be the worst part, he is so much fun and so active, and I can throw him around or dance around the living room with him.  I have 3 full weeks to go before this baby even has a chance of surviving, and I truly hope the outcome will be all worth it.

Thanks for reading and sorry for the novel!