Today I made it to 30 weeks! I was first admitted on Jan 18 with vag bleeding and stayed a week (?) sort of a blur now....I was given the steroids and bleeding stopped a few days than came again while I was still in. Again it stopped with only 1-2 cm dilation... I got to go home for 4 days (to thankfully get some rest)...I have 4 other children and home school them so it was easy to just sit around and do school all day rather than going bonkers in the hospital. However, bled again and was admitted for 3 days than sent home with the 3 strikes your in discharge summery...Got home for 2 days and this time I packed my bag just in case (since hubby is not the best at bringing the correct stuff...took him 4 days to bring me a razor LOL)!
2 days later I was back in after more bleeding and I was now dilated to 3! I also began having contractions...so they were ready for me to deliver at 28 weeks...BUT contractions stopped Procardia started and so now I sit since that admit day on Feb 8...no bleeding since then but had some pressure episodes, bp went up a bit but that is not an issue, first time got diagnosed with gestational diabetes which I think was an error caused by the steroids but now the food tray have certainly gotten worse...no more fun pies, etc.! I actually lost weight...well since Dec I have not gained any weight!
After this time it is pretty depressing...visitors slack off, kids come but are bored and jump around the small room, I have a new nurse every day which drives me crazy b/c I have to go through the entire story and full assessment...arrrgh! Residents come in all the time and ask the exact same questions..Does anyone read a chart around here??? Poking me, probing, etc...I hand picked my female OB 11 years ago b/c I wanted a female now I get poked and "checked" by a rainbow of people...m and f!!!
Don't get me wrong, I am glad I have made this far and I am certainly blessed not to have major health issues like the PreE ladies...I am also thankful that if anything goes wrong I am right here but after being here so long my anxiety is increasing that the likelyhood of something happening will...when will it occur and which Dr. will be there to handle it? Also will hubby get here in time? He is a few minutes away but will have to find a neighbor to go over with the 4 kids ages 10, 9, 6, and 5.
So this place is starting to wear on me, I have decorated it the best I can and brought even a painting my friend gave me to jazz up the beige wall...calender is a must with tracking of days, kids art, books (I find hard to read b/c just tired), the internet is so great as well as texting since most people are going about their lives and I don't want to call them too much...just check in with a text!

I find it disappointing some of the friends whom you thought would call or come by have not...my own brother although has helped a bit with entertaining the kids has never come to see me...my mom was coming but get this she got the flu but was up here the same day they diagnosed her with H1N1 and now for 10 days I have to be on Tamiflu! Thankfully I did not get it but she went to the hospital and here I sat unable to help at all...that was very depressing!
So I guess, I am glad to be where I am but praying daily for the grace to endure. I do not like this isolation experiment and wish it would end soon with me going home but docs are afraid I will bleed and come right back!